Over the past 6 months I have realized some things, remembered some things, and discovered some things, that pushed me out of reality for a little while. My Best Beloved, my spirituality, and a psychiatrist and two count 'em two therapists are helping me back.

I'm so very tired of talking about my mental health and I can't stop talking about my mental health.

But in the past, when the hard things came out to music they hurt a bit less.

#ukulele #strings #sad #slow

it slipped in while I wasn't looking it drifted through the window in my sleep I felt it long before I knew it and I haven't known it yet it's far too deep

it's coming there isn't any choice it floats up near where I can see it touches in places I'm afraid of and it feels like I'm not really me

I wish I knew how to make it leave me I didn't know it was even there and now I wish that I could just unknow it and I wish that I could just not care

but it slipped in while I wasn't looking it drifted through the window in my sleep I felt it long before I knew it and I haven't known it yet it's far too deep