I've frequented some certain establishments for gay men in the past whereby casual sex was very much the modus operandi of the venue. It's not uncommon for them to be busy places. It's also not uncommon for me to get completely ignored by everyone present. And I wrote this song based on my experience of being judged on my physical appearance in a place where physical appearance is all that matters.

It's an OK song. I like the chorus more than the verses. The verse melody I think I've stolen from previous songs I've written. Meh. It's a song.

And I'm doing that annoying thing of uploading audios onto YouTube because file hosting and sharing confuses me 😀

#acoustic #acousticonetake #piano #singersongwriter #ballad #sad #pop

It’s an easy escape Under the arches Where pleasure unfolds I’ve been wasting away No hand touches me But my own

I come here in the search A search for a moment A minute or two But everybody deserts As soon as I show up So what do I do?

You don’t need to see me to know you don’t want me You already know I do nothing for you You don’t want to be too close to my body ‘Cause even in the dark I’m too ugly for you

It don’t work anymore Ignoring the voices They just overwhelm I’ve got the message before I’m too old, I’m too fat I’m too unfuckable

And I’ve been sat in the corner Making eyes at the wall Watching the pack How else am I meant to feel When you choose to ignore me And turn your back?

You don’t need to see me to know you don’t want me You already know I do nothing for you You don’t want to be too close to my body ‘Cause even in the dark I’m too ugly for you I’m too ugly for you

I just want to feel the flame Sparking up on me again Nothing ventured Nothing gained

You don’t need to see me to know you don’t want me You already know I do nothing for you You don’t want to be too close to my body ‘Cause even in the dark I’m too ugly for you

Even in the dark I’m ugly It’s true