Sooooo I picked up Hamnet to grab my random paragraph for this #skirmish prompt...and it made me think of that damn show again (j/k, not really mad about it)... 🏒🏒🏒

Here's the paragraph:

He can feel Death in the room, hovering in the shadows, over there beside the door, head averted, but watching all the same, always watching. It is waiting, biding its time. It will slide forward on skinless feet, with the breath of damp ashes, to take her, to clasp her in its cold embrace, and he, Hamnet, will not be able to wrest her free. Should he insist it takes him too? Should they go together just as they always have? -Page 168, Hamnet, by Maggie O'Farrell.

So this is about death and maybe going there with a loved one so they don't go alone. I grabbed onto the idea of the death of a loved one and went with it...

The idea behind this song is: what happens when you are pushing someone away (because it's safer, you don't deserve them, whatever reason) but then they could REALLY be taken away from you, like you've lost others before...do you still want to walk away?

But anyway you don't have to know anything about the show. This stands alone just fine.

At first I ended it right at the accident...but I decided to make it a bit more hopeful (and to give myself a third time to sing the chorus) so I have updated the demo and lyrics.

I'm playing the same orange Enya Nova U Concert, mostly because I enjoy using it to write and I'm not super interested in putting forth the effort to switch for recording today. 😅 And there's more fingernail clicking but it's not as bad as on other recordings lol.

#heatedrivalry #singersongwriter #skirmish #acousticonetake #ukulele #girlwithukulele #uke #fuc #loss

I'm Not Fine

Em Am D Bm From the moment she left I was alone Surrounded by predators In my own home I hardened my skin Till I lived in a shell Made a home in her memory Her smell

Em C Em D I thought I grew up strong All my armor unpierced I even hid from myself My fear

C D Bm Em, C D Bm C (But) I've always been wounded Starved for love and for touch I didn't think It would matter that much I can try to ignore it But it's sharpened with time I might have to admit I'm not fine

Em Am D Bm From the moment I saw you I was so drawn I was up for a lark and you Looked like a pawn Just some beautiful danger To give me release Somehow at the same time I found peace

Em C Em D I said it was nothing How you felt in my arms Told myself it was better To part

Cho:

Em C Em C, Em D Bm C Then you gave me a chance I was tempted to take Though my fear once again Considered a break But then you got hurt And they took you away Just please please please Be okay

Em C Em D I thought I was so strong All my armor unpierced But in your hands you held all My fear

Cho:

Em Am D Bm The next morning I saw you You were on the mend You tried to take my hand I tried to be a friend But the hope in your dark eyes Drove my protests away So please please please Be okay

Am C Em - I'll do anything you say Be okay Be okay Be okay

FAWM 2026, Song #10

Lyrics: 03 Feb 2026, 3:45 PM, CST Music: 03 Feb 2026, 4:07 PM, CST (Last verse added & bridge music created about an hour later) Inspired by Heated Rivalry (Ilya's POV, iykyk)