Both Already Mothers
Liner Notes
A song to honor the memories of Tierra Walker and Ciji Graham. These women died while pregnant. Their deaths were preventable.
Their doctors refused to treat the conditions that endangered their lives (because they were pregnant) and then obstructed their access to abortions (because of unpopular, undemocratic antiabortion laws).
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Lyrics
when my sisters died, they were both already mothers who wholly knew they could not bear another I have to take the time to lay a rose down while I'm raising these three cousins like they're brothers
my older sister: killed by bans her sons: ten and thirteen she begged from all her doctors to end this quickening from seizures in the hospitals - GO HOME. death in the making. her boy tried to restart her heart knowing his own was breaking
my sisters died: they were already mothers we lay the roses down, to mark that path for others
my little sister, killed by bans. her son, he's in pre-school. her heart's not strong enough to see another pregnancy through the doctors, they won't treat her - put her in a long long line her boyfriend finds her body two weeks before her appointment time
my sisters died: they were already mothers we lay these roses down, to mark this path for others my sisters died: they were already mothers oh lay these roses down, to mark this path for others
ah, ah -
I knew I'd never want to be a mother I'd want to live my life as something other I somehow find the time to lay the roses down while I'm raising these three boys like they are brothers
Comments
It's so hard to comment on how amazingly structured and written this song is because the subject matter tears your heart out. It's epic, beautiful, screams at you, and slaps you in the face. Amazing art. (Couldn't stop me from saying it.) Thank you.
The narrative is almost unbearable. It sounds like something from a third world country crippled by colonialism that we have to pretend not to be judgemental about.
It was an amazing choice to go with such a wide-ranging melody rather than hiding in 3 chords. Musically it reminds me a lot of the Who, although with real lyrics. Excellent.
Epic. One of your greatest, and that is saying something. Even though the lyrics are powerful and well-phrased throughout, my favourite part is the ah, ah - section, especially with that stringy-woody bass part. If this is you just warming up, we had better strap in for the ride!
Really well done. Important and powerfully told. Nice dynamic changes and I love how the vocals build in each chorus. My one bit of feedback (which, of course, you are always welcome to ignore 😄) is that it feels like a few of the lines are a bit rushed ("her sons ten and thirteen", "her heart's not strong enough to see another pregnancy through") and followed by a lot of space. I wonder how it would sound if you let those lines take up a bit more space. They are important parts of the story but they lose a little impact when they go by so fast.
the heatbreak is even stronger than the anger in this remarkable song that makes its points through personal experience rather than political sloganizing. this is the kind of protest song that i respond to. there are no cliches ..just the truth, the reality that comes down hard on the victims of bad legislation and prejudiced, self righteous moral posturing.
Very powerful and using music in this way, to make a point and to vent anger and raise awareness is the way it has to be. Thanks for doing this and doing it so well
I hate that you had to write this song. I'm so glad that you did. Righteous anger, powerfully expressed. The song finished. The hair on my arms is tingling and I'm sitting here in the far-too-early morning stillness wondering how to express a hug and build a world where taking care of each other replaces the need to control.
Very good song... some great vocals here. And a very serious topic covered really well with these lyrics. Some tasty bass playing.. the whole music is really well done. I really like the change in tempo around 2:45...
Wow killer keys! The contrast between the narrative of the tragic women’s stories and the more chorus sections is great. Love the vocal harmonies. Really great work here!
This requires one to sit up and listen. The lyrics and the performance are both equally powerful. Important things to think about on this lovely February day.
Wow. Just wow. You made that live and breathe.
The remnant of the click track at the end of the song off in the distance makes it really — eerie is not the word, maybe portentous. And then it stops. You thought about this arrangement and it shows.
Intense story and your music and lyrics really convey it well. There is a sense of urgency in the music that makes one sit up and listen.
The percussion at the edges is like millions of feet driven to slaughter from these immoral bans and it's utterly gutting.
Great work, Elaine. Whew.